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  • Imaginary Lovers

    The time, I spend loving you is the time
    I spend separated from my own
    life-long imaginary lover.
    That stunning ideal of a woman-in-waiting
    must have aged because I have done so, too.
    I guess, she's become less attractive,
    less active, and less capable of
    understanding my changing needs, as her
    imaginary lover. She is the kind of perfection
    who missed her very own entrance, her loneness
    adding to the inevitable build-up
    of her disillusionment with imaginary love.
    With the passing of time, I have become
    more accepting that —
    in spite of her imagined perfection —
    she's no longer welcome.
    In her name, I used to gamble with destiny
    in search of fortune.
    She's the one part of me I chose to abandon
    as the imaginary pay-back against the odds.
    Now, devoting myself to just you,
    I know I can never miss out
    on a rush of complexities
    as exhilarating as
    the idea of immortality itself.

    Richard Tylman

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    Vacation Love

    Love begins with the promise of novelty,
    which is the main component of every departure.
    Going away is how we
    attract new love
    in its most exotic environment.
    For you and me, vacation love begins
    the morning, we leave the Lower Mainland
    through the Straits of Georgia,
    and plunge into the remnants
    of the rainforest.
    Opening vistas hold the promise
    of excitement in progress.
    We put on a different, younger face
    for the ferry joyride.

    The forest is bursting with the sounds of love.
    It stands weathered and naked. Feeling watched,
    we curl under the old blanket,
    in front of a stove,
    in a rain-soaked cabin.
    The crackling of the fire is like ravens' cackle. —
    The cackle and the crackle
    of the night falling upon
    primal life.
    Making love in the woods, we find,
    is as opulent as breathing.

    Richard Tylman

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    Let's Dance

    Haven't we danced among basement storage
    once, or
                   while house-cleaning with
    a dusting brush for a rose?
    And again, haven't you come
    swinging a watering can
    like the hem of your skirt,
    be it with the national radio,
    or the TV; be it barefoot
    with hips wrapped in a towel —
    with the Big Dipper
    shining over a stack of dirty dishes?
    We've made it through
    and that's enough of a reason
    to celebrate.
    Let's dance then out of sheer gratitude.

    Like willing minds, our dance steps
    need to be well aligned since no-one
    can watch their feet
    all the time without an intuitive
    sense of flow. No dancers
    would want to step on each other toes
    with words and emotions,
    secret moves and unfulfilled desires.
    Dancing requires that partners be
    happy together, as well as when apart.
    It's a ready-made form
    of mutual understanding between equals.

    Richard Tylman

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    The Summer

    In summer, when the city sparrows,
    crazed, fly crashing into white-hot air, and
    the fields of grass, rejuvenated,
    strive to escape their own down-to-earth
    existence, even a high-powered love is
    easy going. Both our radiant
    bodies carry an open invitation during
    the long days of summer.
    We need no additional stimuli, overwhelmed by
    our senses already and only plotting our way out of
    recapture by a post-modern,
    down-to-earth society.
    In summer, life gets downright fleshy
    if not plain physical.
    We're feeling excited by our daydreaming
    about homesteading somewhere between
    the widespread legs of this planet.
    Urbanites, heaven forbid!

    Richard Tylman

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    A Gut Feeling

    Compassionate love
    per se, never seems like much.
    It can best be defined by
    how effortless it is. Showing compassion
    brings about a feeling of ease
    of the most casual kind;
    but, to be offered compassion —
    or compassionate love — is not a common
    occurrence. Such absence
    of commonality, in turn, can feel
    like a suction in the gut. It is a feeling
    similar to the living memory of unhappiness
    that is suddenly missed from the heart, of
    a lifetime of grievances once prominent,
    or a limb that has been
    surgically severed; yet, itches still.
    The absence of pain — like
    compassionate love — is rarely experienced.
    It shows up as a gut feeling,
    unknown from relationships long finished.
    Love, freed of compassion, is for people
    who find the act of love
    free of meaningful people.
    It is a kind of
    howl in predatory darkness of all passion
    that kills that empty feeling
    like the taste of prey.

    Richard Tylman

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    Rhythm Method

    Dead silence is the only heritage
    of all the victims of disillusionment;
    those who have never been told
    how to go about living without having to
    silence their own curiosity first.
    Silence of the disillusioned
    keeps pushing each new generation back
    into the cradle of self-knowledge.

    Thus, coming of age, how could we be told
    anything useful about aging by those
    who abandoned their own youthful selves
    in shame for having been there once,
    without any insight. Coming of age,
    for instance, we have but little knowledge
    of the interdependence of
    the astral bodies and those of our own.

    The Moon cycles and the times of change
    are not beyond comprehension; even though,
    they require a level of awareness.
    Certainly, such skills remain rare,
    not only among the old, but also among
    the well experienced. Yet, we expect
    the young to rise
    above our gross inability to live
    in accordance with the lunar cycles.

    Old customs make no mention
    of our own species' basic stuff of life.
    We make no preparations for
    a none celebration
    of the biggest event yet among
    all of our powers —
    a girl's first fertility cycle. There's
    nothing but shame that comes crashing down
    upon girls where there should be music
    and an all-night dance, a feast for all,
    and a showering of gifts, a long gown
    that would make her proud, and
    new shoes for the boys so as to help them
    stand-up to the occasion.
    Instead, there's the secrecy of silence
    that surrounds the imminent arrival of yet
    another lunar spell.
    The ghosts of Gregorian monks
    keep rising up
    with plumes of steam
    from a squeezed-out sponge
    in a cold and darkened bedroom.

    There has yet to be invented
    the universal rhythm calendar set for each
    human being, where their own gestation period
    would be used as a standard of measurement;
    each, consisting of the total number
    of weeks of growth, from inception to birth.
    One calendar-book per person,
    both male and female,
    with days of rest and reflection, being
    reflective of the menstrual bleeding of women
    at the beginning of each cycle,
    followed half way through
    by an egg released for each
    brand new project. Six billion rhythm
    calendars envisioned
    for a present-day planet.
    A flood of blood matched only
    by a flood of Moon calendar publishing
    from Katmandu all the way to Lublin.

    But, I have heard you say, my friend,
    you are not aware of such a subtle change
    taking place. Such as, when
    your own breasts become misty soft,
    each month, regularly, like
    the waning Moon, or quiet and carefree,
    at a cusp of a new phase,
    as only you can be,
    when you're not fertile.
    Such were the rhythmic ways
    of life experienced by your gender; yet,
    never appraised in public
    since the times of
    our own forbearers.

    I guess, deep down,
    we don't really like each other
    that much, mothers and the mothers
    of mothers to be. The old who care
    not about the self-knowledge of
    the young; but, about the hymens being thorned
    with or without the shiny proof of purchase,
    like the silly dreams
    of their own innocence lost,
    once and for all.

    Richard Tylman

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